Depression, depersonalization, pleease help?

Hi, I really dont know how to help you, its hard to understand, but i honestly wish you all the best and hope you get better. you should try and maybe think well life i so delicate like a flower one drop and its gone, in a sense, the wind blows it away, you could maybe think of life more, its hard to change your mind, or ask your mum for the councellor again. good luck xxx :)